Why?

Why I have to keep smiling after all these happened?
Why I pretend to be fine?
Why I forgive you?

It's only because I treasure our relationship, I don't want another gap between us.
I can easily hide my feeling from you but I can't lie to myself anymore, since it really happened!
You think I don't care these things but I do.

can you respect me?
can you consider my feeling?
do you know that it hurts I just didn't tell?


I hate myself; I hate myself care others' feeling too much!

Everyone does that to me after things happened -- may that's all my fault... can't blame.

The kind of girl that you can let down, thinking everything is ok... I'm only human!!!